I sometimes wish I could vent my frustrations by purging them and inflicting damage on the thing that caused in. In my current state, it is my essay that deserves this blunt force trauma- or rather, anticipated and hopeful. Too bad it's deeply embedded within my laptop, literally... it's INSIDE OF IT. If the essay is damaged, then my laptop breaks. And in targeting the essay, I do not mean that I would like to destroy it, or else I'd get an F in class. I mean that I wish to annihilate its existence. Fatality. But what causes me this stress is so deeply rooted in one of the most important things in my livelihood currently, my laptop, which is congruent to my grades, my future, my access to all my files necessary for my career and classes and friends.
So, while pretending the essay is a human being, we do it justice by assuming it is laughing at us (not always, because i usually enjoy writing my essays but right now my brain is aboutt o explode from some sort of overload from life), and we find vengeance by completing it with and getting an A.
(Whenever I feel like I have too much work or just become so completely downtrodden with assignments, or life, I liek the adopt that sarcastic, cynical attitude. But usually, I take it in and just...wait.)
semi-moral: DO YOUR SH*T. Dont procrastinate or take on too much. This doesn't just apply to school work. dont overburden your emotions.
Most current work:
Oye Glam shoot, with photographer Konjo Kalonji and other model Maya.
this portion is from their lookbook shoot
forgot to mention these pictures are not by konjo, they're taken by sarah. konjo's to come soon
sarah fixing maya's stuffz
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^Oye Glam leg chain, rings, and hat. On other model, body chain and hat and bangles . And sarah's yellow shirt, not for sale.
shoes not for sale in case they get inquiries
i dont remember if i shared this but its taken by Konjo as well. The tutu is made by her. The crown/leg chain is by oye glam
I had worn shorts for the first time since summer on may 1st, and today I wore my red galaxy dress from black milk, paired wtih studded shoes from Aldo and a black top.
Alsoooo with my DIY self studded leather bag :D
I decided also to throw on red lipstick for drama!
Studded leather wrap watch, and some twisty bronze bracelet
Snake ring from aldo, zodiac ring band, brown bracelet from thrift
Before the wind gusted and the sky began to cry, I had collected pretty things in my yard- the helicopter seeds, some fallen petals and whole flowers, and the puffy weeds.
I remember being told when I was younger that those weeds are terrible, but I was always sad when someone would remind me that I can't have those in my yard or else my whole yard would disappear, because I really liked them. They naturally sprung open into balls of cotton, so soft and perfect. I had wanted a yard full of them, just because they look awesome. So I decided to take the weed out of context, uproot them from the ground carefully and break them apart, keeping the seeds.
I washed out an old glass jar, tied one pink ribbon around the jar for "handles," so as to keep today in a jar.
Also, last week I modeled for Dana of Artaya, one of DC's best designers, writers and artists, at Readsetdc's fashion district at the Powerhouse in georgetown. I wore a sparkly dress that I opened one of her shows with before, and ... she let me keep it. too amazing. i stood on a table in front of a window, and looked at everyone hehe
14 days of class left before finals, i can't beleive it's all going so quickly...
even though the temperatures may be the same, the atmosphere, humidity, and everything is so different. the sun even shines differently
88 O_O Woke up so happy, sat in my office so happy, just so happy in generallll, so I wore silky flowery shortsa nd a white top and did my hair like this:
as you can see, half of my hair is up in a ...
french braid with wild flowers/weed aha in it!
i was going to do a fishtail braid but i was really late for class so i tossed it up in this, and as i was walking to math i found the flowers and stuck them in my hair.
enjoy the sunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
Semester's almost over, I believe 19 days! A girl in my hall is updating her whiteboard on her door to show the number of school days left. 19...I can't believe that's all there is left. It makes me anxious to know that my school year is almost over and this summer I'll be working full time, again, taking classes, etc etc, doing what a student would/should do.
But I always wonder if that's what I really want...
one day at a time, so now it's time for hw! too many essays for my brain i think it is going in to shut down mode way too frequently
next post, pictures from my shoot with konjo kalonji and oye glam!
You know those songs that remind you of one time of your life? Perhaps it brings you back to your first day of college, to your prom, first kiss, one certain lover, a concert, Christmas, anything, whatever/wherever your heart may be, whatever quotes from the song wink at your heart. But then there are the ones that don't bring you back anywhere, but rather anchor you, root you in the present and paralyze you. They resonate so loudly for some reason, and have the ability to tear you apart and make you smile all at once.
Perhaps it's the epicness of this song, the dramatic build up of the instrumentals, the beautiful lyrics... but I'd like to think ti's more than that, that the beautiful lyrics aren't just lyrics that sound good, but feel good, and that the instrumentals play a silent movie of single moments and reveries over and over.
But maybe there's a danger in that, in outlining our lives with these songs, of holding on to something so tumultuous.
It makes me wonder where my strength is, where it is to let me stand on my own two feet. But, instead, I sigh at those moments that will never be created, at the moments that have been left there with the song. What's hardest is the attempt to let it go
can't you just imagine tears, wind, blinding, heart palpitations at a racing speed, desperation, and drowning?
Yet it all ends in a beautiful symphony, it all works out in the end.
as my last post stated, i was in a fashion show 3/31/2012 fashion fights poverty and walked for luis valenzuela and seth aaron henderson. one of the best fashion events i've been in
more pics from it
(no iddin't cut my hair! Seth had the models in wigs and Luis had the hair up in a nest-like structure)
Photographers' names on the photos themselves
Luis and some of his models during the last bit of the show!
hair transformation
for luis' hair ^ then there was a wig put on top for seth's
what i wore for Luis' show, heavy armor! hehe.
absolutely just awesome
this girl was absolutely stunning
seth fixing the leggings
Well tomorrow is easter sunday, so it'll be to church I go. more updates later.
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