Triumph rains from the sky in explosive rounds of sprinkles in remembrance of independence, a moment of unity silences worries. July 4th I sat alone (at first) on top of my car a good distance away from the town fireworks while I was waiting for my brother. It was the first time I sat so far away to witness them, it was actually by accident that I saw them. The fireworks had started late so they ended an hour after I got there to pick him up. I don't go to see the fireworks every year, I'm glad I did this year. I climbed on to the top of my car and then decided that it was too far up, and there was nowhere to lean so I slid down to the hood and propped myself against the windshield.

I watched as the black canopy became a painter's tablet, colors splattered in spurts of inspiration  

they were diamonds screeching in the darkened horizon, trickling into a chandelier before slyly winking their farewells beyond the smoke.

 

The amazing skirt I wore to see the fireworks,I thoguht it was pretty fitting since it had all those sparkles of diffeent colors =]

What I'm wearing:

- 5.99 skirt from forever21 (probably the best find I've ever had aside from a 50 dollar valentino belt SPLURGEEEE)

- pink ribboned corset- i forget

- Awesome orange wedges (I got ytellow shoes, I can't decide which I like better)- DSW
- black ring: asos

- rose ring: i forget

- watch bracelet, ny company 

 

 

I was actually joined later by a group of college students who were around me, they recognized the music I was playing

It made me smile since each song is special

Radiohead- you are all I need

deftones- sex tape 

by your side- sade (neptunes remix)  

Arguru -Deadmau5 EDX 5un5hine remix 

Moby- natural blues

 

 Summer is ending in a month, I wonder what autumn will bring us as the leaves redden and blush their crimson hue. 

 

(firework pic above was not taken july 4th, but later in alexandria)

 

 

Each grain fell, creating a microcosmic disturbance among the awaiting seconds, seconds that rained in a cadence from the sky, matching each eager heartbeat slowed by anguish, announcing its fear through the ribcages . Every thud split off a minuscule fracture of the granules, nano seconds ricocheting around its sculpted confines. 1...2....3... I watched as these sands of time one by one dropped around me, crashing through the sinking sand, each reverberation paralyzing me with the fear of losing against time. As the sand shifted and dipped and swallowed me whole, my heart's triumph had to surrender to the inevitable...the unbeatable.

But then I slid through the tiny glimmer of hope as I watched my heart turn around, allowing time to drip slowly and glimmer against the ground, the glass catching each drip and drop of sand. The once muting, crushing time had now become my music, the echoing collisions freeing my heart from the grasp of vexation. 

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Something about the ability to watch time drip into a confined glass bulb is so satisfying...

 

http://www.etsy.com/listing/77044485/brass-hourglass-pendant-necklace

 

http://www.etsy.com/listing/62563435/the-vintage-style-hourglass-glass

 

A message in a bottle also carries a similar type of sentiment that the hourglass does... something about time and distance separating two lovers ...

http://www.etsy.com/listing/72175529/message-in-a-bottle

http://www.etsy.com/listing/63772103/message-in-a-bottle-ii

haha not really a message bottle, but could be! I love the way its designed. What about flowes AND a message? 

http://needsupply.com/flower-bottle-necklace.html

Keepsakes, for the sake of love 

I guess the difference between a locket (which i still like a lot) and message bottles is that message bottles can be lost at sea, delivered to your lover, found possibly on the frothing shores under the twilight sky

And potion bottles are quite awesome as well =] 

http://www.etsy.com/listing/73484710/love-potion-no-9-bottle-pendant

 Yes, i DID go on a window (haha internet browswe window) shopping adventure!

Speaking of things from the past,

 

Here is my coke bottle again that we found in a previous adventure to Balducci's after my work

YAYY

coke bottle+mozzarella/tomato 

My eyeballs still aren't fully ok so I have to wear glasses for the next two eweks. ZOMG

 And I believe next post will be time for a long over due fireworks post with this skirt that I got for 5 dollars. IDK if you can tell from the picture but it has the brightest sparkles, but is still dark enough to remain mysterius. Accessories and such next time OH HAIRRR YEA

 

 By the way in case you people from my area/in the longitude directions haven't noticed it's been hot as JHUDJKFZCXU

*Melt*

 

 MOOZIK

Tripssono- Del Plata

Shapeshiter- Summer Haze

Armada Latina- Cypress Hill/pitbull

Angus and julia Stone- big jet pla e

sail- awolnation

 

 

See these twinkling cups? They've never left my mind since the first time I saw them when I was four.  

 

Mr Jamey Turner in Old Town Alexandria, my hometown.
 

I remember the first time I saw him finishing setting up his "glass harp" (as it is so elegantly termed) I was stunned by the pretty wine glasses, and the incidence of light shimmering across water. As I stood and watched this (back then 17 years younger) man wet the tips of his index fingers and palm, I held my breath wondering what was going to happen, captured by the glistening cups. 

As his hands embraced the rim of the glass, a humming escaped the vibrating crystal chalices as the water quivered along the inner surface.

The sounds reverberated under the red brick ceiling as the crowd multiplied in number and applaud. He swiftly sang the tune of a melodious piece (that I did not recognize at the time) with his glass harp. The ethereal hums and echos produced from this stunning contraption were all too alluring.  

But it wasn't just the obvious talent or the soothing sound that came from the glass harp, or even the creativity of the instrument or scientific implementation used to create it that drew me in the most. It was the courage and passion the man had for years, going against the norm of becoming what everyone else is becoming. He probably went against his parents' wishes. Or not, but either way, he chased something that he loved and is sharing it with the rest of the world.  

It's the freedom of choice and passion that drew me in the most, his act against the norm.

It was great revisiting this place on very special trip down (yay surprises!). I would say trip down memory lane, i guess in a way it was but new experiences arise each time. 
I can't be forever stuck within a shell of memories  

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I've been wearing my high waisted white shorts more now! Thank you summaahh. And orange shoes, of course=] They're breaking =[ gotta find new ones to replace them wwith...  ALSO I've been Sporting my 8th grade glasses (the ones I got 3 years ago broke about a week before my eye infection) for about 2 weeks because I've had an infection in my eyes. They became all swollen and red and weid and just...you know, all aorund BEAUTIFUL.

Outfit for a day 

       

Shorts:H&M
Shoes: DSW
Belt: MNG
Top: Zara 
Scarf: some lace scarf i forget from where =
  

And I saw these amazing freaking shoes at Urban otufitters 

 

didn't buy them haha =[

 

MOOZIKK

 

G-splif- I know (melancholic outtake)

The resistance (feed me remix)

nostrand- ratatat

rjd2- fhh instrumental

massive attack- daydreaming

Soothing sounds

I hope your first half of summer has been splendid =]

 

 @Hello_Bianca, @coolmonkey, @bittersweetromantic, @roadlesstaken, @flipguy310,  @junbelievable08, @HelloKitty0809, @dayrab, @jia_x3

I'm still surprised that my parents let me out of the house on several occasions while we were still in Cali. 

I  met up with coolmonkey, flipguy310, junbelievable08, and Brooke Kao and Duran   

 

 plaque on the grounddd that he pointed out haha

 Griffith Observatory with Einstein and coolmonkey. aww they became friendss

Good shows, though I accidentally fell asleep for a bit in the planetarium >< Comfortable reclined chairs..K.O.

 

Kwan's with junbelievable08 and flipguy310. everyone say "AWWW" for bromance

Then flip and I ventured around little tokyo andhe showed me the gunblade storee! and i saw the plunger there (@roadlesstaken)

 

 

 

I then saw Brooke and Duan and Jeffery, their evil, possessed and self conscious cat. Isn't he cute?!and fatttt

Zee chef hat

 

 damnn girl

My family andI also visited UCLA. I would not mind going there for grad school at all. Beautiful sandy buildings, lots of green quads, and of course beautiful weather.

 

 

baha bro and his ucla sweatshirt

got losttt...so instead of picking up phones they took a picture. 

 

   

 A few days after I got back from Cali, I met up with

hello_bianca, roadlesstaken, hellokitty0809, jia_x3, dayrab, bittersweetromantic, timmmy, and cindy

 

(thoe two pics stolen from starr and alex! bianca and those two have updates)

So now I'm in the process of healing up my eyes. almost there!

Summer has definitely flown by, it's already the middle of July and I can't seem to fit everything I want/have to do in without burning out.

As if the hourglass melted into a sphere and the sands of time circle around in a blurred fury...

   

 Anywaiz moozik!

Motorcyle-As the rush comes- gabriel/dreseden mix

Massive attack- angel

RJD2- La L'alouette

Nero Innocence Feed Me remix

Gorillza- Melancholy Hill (feed me remix)

 

 

Day 5 and 6 we drove to Vegas One of my favorite drives ever. The desert scene is astounding

(I'm skipping day 4 and 7 for later!)

 

Day 5: Vegas.

This drive was amazing. It wasn't just the scenery that was amazing, it was the family bonding that really did it. (Although the place isn't exactly family friendly at all)

pee break

this is the coolest it ever got aghhh so drryy
but at least i got to drive...so i got to control the AC  >:) haha 

AFte driving in some traffic (haha errwun heading to EDC!!) we FINALLY got to the convention center in vegas where we stayed for an hour deciding on a hotel. Impromptu trip ftw

haha my brother and I got kicked out of the casino area twice. The second time, when my brother and I were teaching my grandma how to play this one machine, the lady told us they;d fine us 5000 each if we didn't comply O_O

In Caeser's!

*SWOON*

One

two

three

HAHA now i'll show you photobombing by random vegas tourists. They were so on time too...didn't even miss a beat/shutter

with bro

and errwun

haha i forget..

I TOOK ALL OF THESE BACK HOME DUH

 

DAY 6: Hoover Dam

 

drive there from vegas

enchanting

being awesome and eating cucumber and oranges

and on to zee tourrr
turbines! 96000 gal water/sec

HAHAzomg reminiscent of engineering statics class...

cool art on the floor haha

incredible engineering feat.

 

on the way back, i cut some desert cactus flowers and brought it ack. they are gorgeous orange

driving backkk

and saw this...

Now we're back. Day 4 and 7 will be posted soon, meetups!:)

 

I guess I don't want to come back because I want to delay turning 21, slow time down. 

But it's alright because this trip was the best it's ever been and I am so happy about the unspoken, slowly evolving changes in my family.

Though I will be sad to leave my loving grandma and extended family and friends, my heart was longing to be back. I think the job there is done, this was a very needed trip for us. =]

 

The single white butterfly danced through the grounds of Death's captivities, all laden beneath the dirt with the sighs of grief and mourn. It flitted, it fluttered, it lead the chase as it examined each grave, hovering above as if to transcend the sorrow into hope's atmosphere. The zigzag path it took curved into the horizon as the butterfly disappeared beyond the hill- I watched with bated breath, wondering if it would ever reappear again. I turned, and we set the flowers, fruit and incense in front of my grandfather's grave. My grandmother said a few words to him and prayed, each word containing a drop of her tear as they dripped from her heart with at the rate the fire consumed the burning incense. We stood for a while, cleaning up the grave and packing up the fruit and wine. I turned over to look beyond the mountains to the side and at that moment a white speck slowly made its way into the field of awaiting souls. It waltzed with the wind across the terrain of green and death and finally saluted its frolic with the wind as it delicately landed on my grandfather's grave. There, it slowly flapped its wings and stayed for an unbelievable minute and spiraled its way upwards blending in with the white clouds, as I lost sight of it. 

 

Day 3, We headed up to visit my grandfather's gravesite. I haven't been there since the funeral! It was a nice visit, we all knew it had been a sad day, but that's exactly what it is- it HAD been. And even then there was always some good from it, the whole family came together. And on Day 3 my family and grandmother were together woven together by a bittersweet remembrance that made us all smile. We all knew and felt the joy through the once stinging loss. 

My brothe the gardner

Haha we actually used medicine cups for the shot glasses that we used to pour wine on the grave with. 

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My bro, sis and I then went to get my brother's haircut 

 

 

Then went and got some food.This cost us 4.25, amazingg...but it's BUBBLELESSS (reminiscent of ktown NY)

 

 

 

 

 

We then headed over to Caltech to visit the campus. Much smaller than I had expected/envisioned, but still nice. Seems like the perfect thinking environment

 

one of my favorite posters there, due to the self assembling aspect =]

POW POW

dad explaining to us the significance of the many scientists on the board

SPACE STRUCTURE LAB IN THE BACK!!!

Then I picked a flower. It was the prettiest red =]

We then headed to what we tink might be my grandma's favorite buffet since we go there every time we visit haha

cousins! (not all)

OMNOMNOMNOM

CHOMP

Day 4, met up with friends in the LA area. Will be posting about that later!Now we're on Day 5 and are headed to Vegas. Yayyy death valley =]

(internet here is so slowww)

After a hectic night and no sleep for >36 hours  I've finally settled in for my short stay in the LA area. It's been fantastic, though completely fatiguing. I'm not sure if I'm thinking correctly now, hopeully when I get more sleep I"ll look at this entry and go, "oh my goodness I wrote that?"

This was the first time the siblings didn't sit all together. We usually sit 3 to a row, and 2 to another row with a different passenger in the aisle seat. This time, my brother sat in the aisle behind me and my sister. It was a rather quiet ride, since my brother and I usually use those 6 hours to mess around with the touch screens in front of us or talk about random events and happenings in our lives. It was still nice, at least everyone else got to sleep. I stayed awake thinking and planning events and different scenarios for the trip, not to actually push them to come to fruition but rather just to have fun, and compare.

Of course, we are always put in situations that are completely unplanned. My completely unexpected encounter was with a little 4 year old girl who was all smiles. While we waited for our rental car, she looked up, smiled, giggled, and hid. Ths happened several times until finally she came over and tugged on my skirt and giggled more. She told me about her school and her crush, which alarmed the mother.

We basically spent the entire day picking up groceries and napping and cooking and cleaning.

So, Day 1, not too many pics

Wondering where the pennies in the fountain go

and of courseee

Day 2:

After seeing my cousin and aunt for a little bit in the morning, we drove off to San Diego. This place is beautiful

Wehn we got there, we decided to have a feast in the parking lot...in our car, eating out of the bag

Homemade errthang

brother eating duck out of the bag

hahaha emoooo

Then we headed to the San Diego Art Museum

Favorite pieces:

 

 

The Visitors

 

 

too tired hahaha

We then walked down this street with the most amazing structures (not too many pictures haha)

But at the end there is a rose garden and cactus garden. I loved both, but the cactus garden drew me in

Rose Garden:

Perfectr timing! Got the bumblebee

Gnarly cactus

andthis iswhat OTHER people did.

Big boulder I sat on. It's actually hard to get on top when wearing sandals

After that excursion we headed over to La Jolla. The name fits perfectly

My brother and sister and I went o the top of it

My grandma and mom wee yelling at me "DONT GO THAT FAR" and I was running around saying "DONT YELL AT ME IMFREEE." short lived.

But that's not the main reason why we went there

THESE are the main reason

 

Hwaiting, and s liding

we got reallyyy close, like a foot away

some woman actually yelled at me for getting too close. Then, after she left, a ton of people came over andstood right next to the seals haha

My sister and I ended up walking away because my mom also yelled at me for embarrassing her haha. -.-

but then I was like...NAH.

FIND THE VICTORIA

 

We're curently about to start Day 3

Not sure what the plans are yet, looks as if visiting UCLA for my brother is on the schedule.

I think my in n out cravings have been sufficiently satisfied (for now).

 

Marvin Gaye- Inner City Blues 

AEM Dubstep Mix COlor and City- Comin Home ( LOVE THISSS) 

 

There's a consignment shop near my office called Reddz trading post that I frequent a lot now (I can't help it >.<). I recently saw this

It was exactly what I had been searching for, an amazing serpent bracelet with emerald eyes. I couldn't leave it alone. For those of you who have been reading my blog for some time, you'll know that I love snake jewelry, claw jewelry..and just some weird things. This bracelet was enough to be elegant yet bold at the same time. It's so adorned yet not obnoxiusly so.

And I received it as an early birthday present!! Thank youuu

I can't stop wearing it/looking at it.

These pics were taking with an Motoral Atrix, A PHONEEEE OMGSH!!! So much clearer than my own camera. (it's not my phone, I still have a not-smart phone,l the one that slides. WEEEE)

This place is such a gem, great stuff at superb prices. I bought a bronze, very fitted trench coat and a metallicy, shiny green pencil skirt from there as well. The trench is legit, it goes down to my knees.

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I'm finally all completely better ahh!! YAY

I leave for Cali for a week tomorrow to see my grandma, cousins/aunts/uncles/friends (xangans included eeheehehe OF COURSEEE DXRL). I am very excited to go back again and make our yearly trip. But I'm more anxious than excited. I think part of me is thirsting for the novelty once again, the excitement of being away at our less visisted second home, but most of my heart is worried that the memories (with everyone I'll see there) will be too sentimental that each will tug at my heartstrings like a marionette hung within the silhouette of nostalgia;that I won't be able to have the courage to stand up to certain people, or stand up FOR certain people, seemst o be harder to do the more I think abot it and ponder/create in my mind the possible immediate repercussions; of breaking bonds in order to meld new ones, and maybe help people forge a new bond in place of broken trusts. I've gotta stop trying to scare myself and just dive in.

I know this will be a most interesting trip. It's not really a vacation ever, it's always stressful especiialy to see deep seeded spite, grudges, anger manifest into betrayal, jealousy and competition in sometimes rather passive aggressive forms. Those are always hard to deal with since there is no direct "proof"/"eidence" pointing to the reasons for hurt.

But my whole fam will be forced together, and the relationships between each of us and as a whole will mature. I can't wait to see everyone that I mentioned above =] It'll be great to see my grandma again too. She's getting so very old (96) and has aged rapidly ever since my grandpa passed away about a year ago (naturally).

In other news I haven't started packing and I leave home at 5 AM. OY. I've put in my extra hours for research in my lab and not really anything I can do about the other patient care job. I think that's one of the few things keeping my mind ocupied and making me feel guilty.

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I've been re watching these episodes. I guess I learn something, but not really because I still remember these episodes- the dialogue/script, personalities of the characters, and comfort I felt when watching these. I was only allowed to watch History/Discovery and Magic School bus as I was growing up (mix of parents and the fact that there was no cable haha ). I did enjoy the former two, but Magic School bus, as I'm sure most of you watched before and still remember, was the culmination of all the fantastical wishes I had. I wanted an education that kinesthetic and hands on, a teacher that was that excited and kind, and students who were mostly open to learning as well.

but it was more than that, it was one of the few things my dad and I could ever joyfully talk about for a while.

Let the marathon commence haha

a few music for the plane ride and your ears:

Carla BRuni: you belong to me
Swan Dive- Until
JOnny Rodgers band- midday moon
Ben Harper- Forever
Antiserum- Dungeon Waltz
My Girl

Farmer's Market

"two lily stems, so you can watch one bloom at home and in your office" 

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I CAN FINALLY EAT NOW! I've been sick and throwing up with a fever for the past week, and I can sort of digest food properly now in more normal quantities. Last Tuesday, I was

BEWILDERED

This was around 2 PM after work when I had already started burning up and getting those feverchills/sweats that you get when you have awesomely insane fevers. I was already delirious and unable to walk hahaaa

This was basically my diet for 2 days (so gross)

Then I added in bananas when I could, then rice congee. But even those I couldn't eat much of.

But I'm plenty better now, fever has dissipated. Thank you so much to everyone who helped  me/for the kind words especially when I didn't ask for help. It really really made me get better faster =]

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A few weeks (or days, or months...my momwon't let me tell haha) ago it was my mom's birthday! I made a dinner for my family. Mussle linguini and berry parfait.

ALl the ingredients used
(Plain yogurt, granola pieces, blueberries, mussels, linguini, olie oil, tomatoes, lemon, garlic, stawberries)

Mmmmmm smelled so good! Lemon+garlic+olive oil+ mussels+ baby tomatoes. every time i lifted the top i almost burned my nose from smelling for too long haha

HAHA Wrapped it all up so my family wouldn't see it until everone sat down

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Obsessed with gunmetal and orange still

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In about 3 days I will be boarding the plane to cali, where I'll HOPEFULLY be seeing several of you.
I'll try to be posting daily, or every two days about my adventures there.

In the meantime, my sister and I bid you adieu

(pahaa)

PS:We didn't celebrate Fathers Day. When I asked him if he wanted to go out to eat/I was going to make dinner for the day, he adamantly refused saying that it is a phony holiday and he feels weird being celebrated. Typical, typical haha. Though he IS getting a berry parfait.

Tristan Prettyamn +Jason Mraz- Shy That Way

Once in a while we meet strangers who inspire us through a brief array of actions and exchange of a few words (in some cases they may even become our friends later on). It's best when we don't expect, aren't waiting for conversations or wishing for any.

This week (Monday) I was so greatly humbled by these short exchanges with strangers. It started with a special bar of mint chocolate I received this week.

This (I bet delicious) bar of chocolate was given to me kindly and thoughtfully, as were all my surprise, 30% dark chocolate, chocolate bars (variations of fruit and nuts, raspberry orange etc etc). It's my favorite type of chocolate, mint chocolate. I usually devour the snacks that people give me, but this time for some reason I just never felt like eating it and kept it in my purse for some days, not wanting to take it out. Good thing I never did.

As I turned out of the downtown area of my work to take a left, I looked to my left and saw, on the other side of the street, an old white man limping around on the sidewalk and road. He had on an incredibly dirty white t-shirt, some old ripped and grass stained khakis and running shoes with holes all over the toe area. But he did have on him smiling blue eyes. He was lmiping all over the sidewalk and road even as cars swerved past him, picking up empty cans and buckets of eaten food, licking and smelling them. The left turn light took 6 minutes to turn green, and during those 6 minutes I watched him, each second feeling my heart breaking a little bit as I wrestled with my next move. I wanted to run out of the ca for a little bit and give him some money, then I realized how little money I actually had on me. After those minutes of debate, I decided I had to make a u-turn at the next light and swing my car next to him. I looked through my purse, wondering if I had food anywhere and my hands found the chocolate bar, and my heart skipped a beat. I really wanted to give him the chocolate bar now.

I turned and pulled up next to him. At this point there were no cars, but you can imaginen the reaction from drivers who slowly pulled in to the road as they honked and yelled at my stopped car (it wasn't actually in an illegal place, it's one of those roads where people park but it's annoying to do so...sort of one of those roads, but not really). So as I apologized to the cars as best I could through hand gestures and mouthing, I waved over the man and said really loudly "Sir I saw you picking up empty cans and was wondering i you were searching for food. if so, I have a chocolate bar. it's not much but it's food and it tastes good!". He walked over with his smile, looked at me, the cars honking by, and the people walking by our strange exchange, and looked at me again. His smile widened and I asked him to take it. He said to me, "I can't." I told him of course he can, I have tons of chocolate somewhere or can get some. (I wish I had some other food to give him, but that would defeat the entire story hah, though part of me felt silly trying to give a hungry man a bar of chocolate, not sure if it's filling). He replied, in a nutshell Someone else needs this more, someone else needs grace. He smiled, said thank you, and after a few more tries we left with a God bless you it was nice meeting you. I turned off my hazards, went about my wonderfully beautiful day thinking about how amazing that man's rejection was.

I had a great time after that, meeting up with amazing people in my life, thinking about how awesome it was that I didn't eat the chocolate bar, and thinking about the man's generous optimism. After dinner, I happened to pass by the intersection I always drove by when I worked at NIH in my fresh year of college. I never got the chance to since every time I saw that man, who was now standing a car's distance in front me at 9 PM, the lights were always green, so I'd look at him hoping one day he'll get his break again.

That night, I saw his face and sign and was happy. I took the chocolate bar, and wanted to give some money but I was unprepared and only had pennies I reached for a few, waved him over and told him that I only have a few pennies which wouldn't be enoughto buy him anything but he can have them and that I don't have much food with me but I do have a delicious chocolate bar. I pulled out the chocoalte bar, smiled and showed it to him. His toothless grin widened as his glassy eyes turned upward into a smile. He said "thank you thank you thank you thank you" over and over, joy bubbling out of his shinning being. I told him of course, and I hope you have somewhere to sleep tnoight, as he kept saying "thank you thank you thank you". Tears welled up in his big glassy gray eyes and slid down his wrinkled cheeks. As I saw his pure joy I wanted to cry as well. I was so happy for him. We said goodbye, and he walked down the median separating the two sides of the road. I wonder if he'll be back there and what will happen if the light ever turns red again.

I tell this not to talk about what to do for homeless people, or to preach good actions, or any of that. I talk about this because I was greatly, greatly humbled and inspired by these two encounters with strangers (and to show you how unbelievably beautiful the world plays out to be :] ). Each time this happens my heart breaks not just from being sad or extremely happy, but from seeing how joyful they can be over something simple and looking inside and knowing that I could and SHOULD be a better person. It's not even about being more appreciative. The whole experience made my slowly yawning and stretching heart and mind snap awake again, as it has many times before when it was necessary. That first old man's smiling eyes were shining with delight, his lips carved upward as he limped across the street. Perhaps he was deranged, but sometimes a man's joy is unmistakably lucid when captured within his eyes, the window of the soul. He had almost nothing yet his optimism, probably one of the greatest gifts he ever received, probably carried him through many dark, terrifying, trying, tribulations. The old veteran with the gray glassy eyes cried at the sight of the chocolate, and the sight of a person talking to him.

How beautiful it is, the connection and love that people can feel when torn. But what's even more beautiful is the capacity that these two felt it in, and the joy that poured out of them, every orifice.
I wonder how optimistic I'd be in that position. I hope my heart and mind would withstand that test if I ever needed.

I guess when we stare into the soul of purity of any form, we see immediately the downfalls of our own character and being all too easily.

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So at the mall, in that hiatus, I had fun trying on stuff that I had no intention of buying (I did hang them up myself after!). I became a traffic conneeee

This fire orange dress was just so beautiful, I wanted it. Too bad the price tag read 256.. and it was on sale HAHA. -.- Oh bloomingdales... = Not sure if I'd buy the dress in another color, since the fit wasn't too awesome (maybe the size was too large) but the color just... I was entranced haha.I think I might really like orange, firey orange...on some things Not all. I like red more still

Spiked heels, Oh my goshhhh INSANE

I've been very glad that I can wear what I want at one of my current jobs without being judged. ACCESSORIIZZEEE (the metal thing is a Chinese zodiac ring)

My work outfit for that day, with my orange shoes as previously mentioned in my last post =]

What I'm wearing:
-Guess Jeans (GO DURING THEIR SALES THEY AE AMAZING!!! usually 50 % off the sale price, or just 50-75%off the regular price of the item which isn't too bad...sometimes)
- Vintage old Guess button up
- The awesome orange sandals
- Some lacey scarf I tied into a bow heehehe

Then headed to Balducci's where we foundddd

(not wrapped, painted on)

I got two haha ^.^

forgot that original coke cans are not twist off, so we used my olddddd subaru key (which I keep for reasons like this) to pry it open

Think...?

BITEE

OOYYY this entry is so long haha.

anyways, music:

Angus and Julia Stone- Devils Tears
Angus and Julie Stone- Bella
Angus and Julia Stone- Mango Tree
UKF Dubstep Tutorial (Presented by Dubba Jonny)
Kaskade

Morgan Page deadmau5 lissie- longest road

Angus and Julia Stone, I'm so glad their music in on my itouch. I really like the lyrics and their sound