January 7, 2013

  • iced

    Most recent shoot, Konjo Kalonji photography; Sarah Oyetubo styling; Jesse Alan hair; Christina Spencer makeup 

    Konjo + Oye cousins, some of my favorites to work with

    I had this silverish paint on me 

    And then a faux bob with white splatter 

     

    took look all icyyy

     

    So post grad has been eventful, more updates later, currently coding for the time-being and continuing my other hobbies/career paths. 

    I do miss school, I always knew I would after graduating, but I plan to keep going. Always room for more. 

    It's not just the freedom, but the opportunity to learn that I miss. Sure going to work can teach you a lot but its' so very rare to have the opportunity to sit in a classroom lead by a scholar (whether you agree with the professor's ideas or not is a separate issue, which is also to your advantage- opportunity to challenge!).

    Now it's time to find out what I actually want, and not want everything at the same time, or perhaps fear being nothing. I keep telling myself at least I have an education/degree, a job,  modeling contract, family/friends/loved ones, God, necessities, but I can't figure out what it is that I will come to do for the world, though I do have ideas of what I'm supposed to do or have been doing and I think that bites my heart every morning. Perhaps I'm too fickle, maybe I become too flimsy sometimes. 

    I used to try to convince myself that the sole reason why I don't want people asking what I' mdoing is because I don't want people to pry, or because I have to maintain a rather low profile of my life outside of modeling, but slowly I vocalize to myself during prayer that it's also because I don't know yet either. Until I can make more than a living and at the same time give my parents/siblings enough money to pay off mortgages and my school loans, I don't know what I'll settle for. But at least I'm taking steps to do so.

     

     

Comments (12)

  • cold hard....witch

  • I like it best when your hair is down.

    Sometimes it takes time for you to figure out what you want to do in life. Sometimes in life it will change and you will make a huge shift.

  • we rarely end up doing what we originally went to school for, unless it's a specific medical or science profession. gives you some flexibility to really decide what to do!

  • Great timing on that first picture :)

    Even though I'm very knowledgeable at what I do, I still question myself if this is what I want. My brain is wired for the technical aspects of computing/Information Technology, but I'm equally as great with the artistic side to them. And I'm okay with that.

  • Automatically started singing Ice Ice Baby. THANKS

  • if anyone could be the ice queen...

  • Good luck! You'll find your calling even if it takes some time. :)

  • Life's uncertainties have never been so real as they are now outside of the odd trance of balancing life within the timeframe of classes. But I know, as well as I hope you do more clearly than I, that all things are beautiful in it's time--including all things that will eventually come. And I know for you, good things will come =]
    beautiful pictures victoria~ You look more and more like a star after each photoshoot

  • That first pic is amazing! Hope your holidays were great.

  • It's hard to narrow down your focus when you're young. There are so many possibilities!

  • I still see something more Sci-Fi like Tron or something :P
    But actually you could be a great Frost from the Mortal Kombat games ;)

    Whatever you are, you look Great! and i love the photography.

  • first photo is dope

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