March 13, 2012

• Sparkling Galaxies +Theophilus London

   

  Red Galaxy Dress from Black Milk! (now linked)

  (BTWWWW ITS SOLD OUT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHOVE BEEN WONDERING)

   

  

   

   

  And worn with my red chiffon cardigan thing from Romwe, from some time ago

   

  

   

   

   

  

   

   

  It's like we see stars whenever we're together

   yup that's my dorm room

  so @mrqtran (music connoisseur )recently put up a post with a ton of music on it and as always it was awesome. one of the artists that he posted up was theophilus london, one of my faves, so here are two of my faves from one of my faves yay

  theophilus london, goulding's starry eyed remix

  PYROMILITIA. MY FAVORITE ...well at least the just the beginning  

   

  Ok so it's been surprisingly sunny and warm with a light breeze today, and it's supposedly going to hold up this way for the next two week.s Weather.com, please please please dont' be trickin us! This sun and warmth is my partial happiness and liberation 

  can't wait to stargaze comfortably outside 

  somehow i became more free last summer

  now it's spring, hopefully april wont be so rainy like last year! I'll go dancing in the rain when it heats up a little more

  also it's too nice out to do my papers/midterms -_- the birds' chirps are calling meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

  hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

   I've found myself becoming increasingly busy and toying with the idea of modeling+internship(because it's PAID and cool research)+fullcourseload + orchestra and if it is still feasible for me to even imagine doing it all. I've realized time and time again that this is one of my biggest downfalls, not ahving a direction and wanting to do everything, and not being able to call myself something certain. I have no direction whatsoever, and I end up taking on everything. Perhaps it's because I'm selfish

  but each time, I think to mnyself, I did ths before and I'velearned time management, and it's a new opportunity...opportunities sometimes only come once in a lifetime, and if they do appear again, it might not be the same. Instead of realizing that I can build up my repertoire in one area, then get an even bigger opportunity, I let my anxiety get in the way and take on EVERYTHING. It sometimes makes me incredibly angry, actually because I really jsut am so wayward

  OK now back to finishing up what is due in the very near future, 2 midterms and 2 papers and final presentation before spring break....and the sun... at least the sun is pouring in through my winow, and the wind isn't screaming and screeching so badly today. I dont think I could take the wind today...not today. I think the sun came just in time to rescue and allow me to finally take one normal breath

  it's like molten gold.

  actually on second thought I think I am capable of it if I can just....breathe right. 

  also it'd be nice if i could find the time and enegery, not just physical but also mental energy to make time for friends. but sometimes through the chaos i just need to be alone and rest. there are only so many seconds a day, and perhaps I'm in such a rush to scrounge up every last one because I feel as if I might turn out to be some failure, with no job, no path in life, which then just leaves me rather distraught. 

  I gotta keep teling myself, I'm still 21, but then again, I'm already 21

   

   

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